Can you see him? With these 90 degree hot summer days, I’m a little jealous of this guy’s throne.
This is one of the current residents in our pond back at my childhood home. Living in the city I no longer get to hear their summertime singing, but that’s okay, at least I have the yowling alley cats to serenade me to sleep. ;)
-I always remember my grandmother using this quote when times were tough.
Here I am saying I’m going to write in my blog at least once a week and now it’s been over two weeks since I’ve last been on here. In my defense, I’ve had dreadful internet at work (our new office building is having issues) so that’s been one factor. Another, not so much in my defense, would be that I’ve just been in a slump. I haven’t had the energy or desire to write at all. I can’t even seem to find the drive to work on my creative writing, even though that usually can be an escape for me. I’m just in one of those “I have no idea what I’m doing or where I’m going” state of minds.
My relationship has gone pretty sour. I take a good bit of blame of course, but I can’t help but feel like I’m trying to make things work. But when one person tries and the other doesn’t…it will never be fixed. I’ve never been in love, despite the many relationships I’ve been in, and I’m not sure I actually can. That’s always been a frustration for me because I watch the world fall in love around me, and yet despite the wonderful people I’ve had in my life, I just can’t ever get to that point. I have no idea what it feels like.
As delightful as LA can be, I also find myself tiring of the fast paced empty Hollywood lifestyle that comes with the entertainment business and I’ve had this strong desire to just pack up and leave it all behind. I find myself becoming so drained by the alcoholic infused parties with the shallow minds and banter and games that are continually played. Having to act a certain way and look a certain way, it has a very claustrophobic feel. I get this urge to just runaway somewhere full of big beautiful land where I can have as many animals as I want. I can finally buy that horse I’ve longed for since I was a child and I can grow gardens full of vegetables and swim in the ocean, or gaze at the mountains.
Yeah, so that slump that probably happens in most people’s lives has kind of hit me at the moment. Who I am kidding though? I’m always in a slump. Just call me Ms. Misery. But once I figure out a way to break through- and find what I really want to do and where I want to be in life- I bet it’s a lovely feeling.
I was able to see The Fab Four at the Starlight Bowl in Burbank Saturday night. If you’ve never heard of them, they’re a band that does a marvelous job of impersonating The Beatles. They were starting their tour, so I was super excited to catch a show. I’m a huge fan of The Beatles (it’s hard not to love their songs) and watching The Fab Four is, of course, the closest I’ll ever come to seeing them perform live. I can only imagine how remarkable that must have been to witness the real thing, because seeing this talented impersonating group was pretty amazing in itself.
My mom was a huge fan, so as a very small child I was most familiar with Abbey Road and Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band. At least, those were the albums I can clearly remember playing at our house. (And Maxwell’s Silver Hammer was my favorite song to listen to. Nothing like a small child loving to hear about people being bashed in the head.) I guess their music opened my eyes to death since hearing from her about John Lennon’s murder was the first time I ever even heard of murder. I still remember being so dumbfounded that someone could just kill another person like that and it scared me to look at his picture walking along the crossroad on Abbey Road.
Despite my morbid introduction to The Beatles, I now think of love whenever I hear their songs. (Except, of course, Maxwell and his silver hammer. Still not feeling love from that one.) What a beautiful, talented band, that was able to inspire so many people to dance happily and sing along Saturday night and continue to live on through those that adore them.